tw: weight, disordered eating, anxiety, depression. you spend your whole life fighting silent battles, that are now manifesting physically. you build mental cages so high; you trap yourself inside. you develop so much anxiety, that it feels like a permanent tremor in your hands, a constant irregular beat of your heart. you carry your problems and tragedies so elegantly, that at some point the ache in your bones and the darkness that bleeds under your eyes become your defining characteristics. they’ll ask your mom about how your clothing now seems like it’s borrowed, and she’ll laugh and say it’s just a new diet. and how can you explain that you’re so full of emptiness that you can’t stomach the thought of food most of the time. or how sometimes you break down in the middle of the night when no one is watching as you desperately try to fill the void with whatever food you can find only to cry about it later. they’ll ...