trigger warning: suicidal ideation kilometer 0 it’s hard to go on walks when all you can think about is how much you want to die. you put on your running shoes and turn the music on so loudly your ears start ringing, but even then, your thoughts come crashing down like angry waves on a shore. it takes a tremendous amount of strength for you to eventually start walking. kilometer 1 you try to sort through the flurry of thoughts but they’re going by too fast. a headache starts forming in your head, but you write it off as lack of sleep. your insomnia returned a few weeks ago, sleep replaced with long nights staring at a ceiling for answers, you can’t find. “what did i do to deserve this?” silence. “will i ever be enough?” silence. “when did i stop feeling?” silence. the silence is so loud it bleeds into your nightmares. kilometer 3 your lungs hurt, but you’re not sure if it’s the wind or if it’s the consta...